{"id":491,"date":"2017-10-24T11:13:32","date_gmt":"2017-10-24T08:13:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/?p=491"},"modified":"2017-10-24T11:13:32","modified_gmt":"2017-10-24T08:13:32","slug":"bagirtlak-kusunun-bagrindan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/2017\/10\/24\/bagirtlak-kusunun-bagrindan\/","title":{"rendered":"Ba\u011f\u0131rtlak ku\u015funun ba\u011fr\u0131ndan&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-488\" src=\"http:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/IMG_3369.jpg\" alt=\"IMG_3369\" width=\"3264\" height=\"2448\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/IMG_3369.jpg 3264w, https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/IMG_3369-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/IMG_3369-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/10\/IMG_3369-644x483.jpg 644w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 3264px) 100vw, 3264px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>San Juan de Ortega: \u201cBa\u011f\u0131rtlak ku\u015funun azizi Yahya\u201d&#8230; Bir zamanlar n\u00fcfusu 1 olan bu k\u00f6yde \u015fimdi, m\u00fcjdeler olsun, 20 ki\u015fi ya\u015f\u0131yor! Kilisenin b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ise ak\u0131llara ziyan. Yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken duvar ta\u015flar\u0131na elimi s\u00fcr\u00fcyorum, kim bilir ka\u00e7 y\u00fczy\u0131l evvel bunlar\u0131 yapan ellere temas etmek i\u00e7in. Birbirini takip eden \u015feylerin birbirlerine dokunmas\u0131 i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n<p>Ge\u00e7en sefer, Avustralyal\u0131 papaz \u00e7ocukla e\u011flenmi\u015ftik kiliseye girmeden&#8230; Papaz \u00e7ocu\u011fun papaz oldu\u011funu \u00f6nceki g\u00fcn anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Belorado\u2019dayd\u0131 san\u0131r\u0131m, bir \u015feyler g\u00fcndeme gelmi\u015fti, birileri i\u00e7in dua etmek gerekti. Kilisedeki t\u00f6rene gittim, papazlar dizim dizim s\u0131ralanm\u0131\u015flar, aaa aralar\u0131nda bizim peregrinolardan biri! Yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken sordum, sen peregrino de\u011fil miydin diye, cevap: \u201cEvet ama du\u015f ald\u0131m!\u201d Neyse i\u015fte bu bizim Avustralyal\u0131 papaz \u00e7ocuk ve arkada\u015flar\u0131yla oturmu\u015ftuk San Juan de Ortega\u2019n\u0131n kilisesinin \u00f6n\u00fcnde. \u00d6nce a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki kasabadan gelen arabay\u0131 papaza uygun bulmu\u015ftu (\u201cIt <i>is<\/i> a very priestly car!\u201d), sonra inen adam\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc&#8230; Nitekim adam kilidi a\u00e7\u0131p kiliseye girmi\u015f, az sonra da t\u00f6reni ba\u015flatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bug\u00fcnk\u00fc t\u00f6renden \u00f6nce, alelacele ge\u00e7en geli\u015fimde yazd\u0131klar\u0131ma bakt\u0131m: Bu papaz bana bir \u015feyler sormu\u015ftu ve ben cevap verememi\u015ftim, bu kez de ayn\u0131 \u015feyi sorarsa ne derim diye\u2026 Tanr\u0131dan ne istersin diye sormu\u015f. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, <i>Paz<\/i> dedim yine, \u00e7ok s\u0131radan bir yan\u0131t olarak, <i>Pero no entre paises, no entre naciones, quiero que tenemos todos nosotros paz dentro*<\/i>. Mesela \u015fimdi, ufak otelimizin ufac\u0131k salonunda, nefeslerimiz birbirine kar\u0131\u015farak yanyana yar\u0131m saat sessizce oturdu\u011fumuz iki ki\u015fi kalkt\u0131 sktrdi gitti, bana d\u00f6n\u00fcp tek kelime etmeden. Tamam, eylemi anlatmak i\u00e7in sktrp gitmek ifadesini kullan\u0131yorum ama k\u0131zm\u0131yorum, bu hareketlerini bana kar\u015f\u0131 bir olumsuz eylem olarak alm\u0131yorum <i>por que tengo paz dentro, paz todas partes<\/i>**&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>O kadar \u015f\u00fckrettim ki -tekrar- bug\u00fcn. En sevdi\u011fim yerlerden San Juan de Ortega\u2019day\u0131m, Camino efsanelerimden&#8230; Roncesvalles, buras\u0131, Rabanal, O\u2019Cebreiro. Tabii \u00e7oook yer var bay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m t\u00fcm Camino Frances\u2019de, ama bunlar\u0131n her biri da\u011flar\u0131n tepelerinde, tahayy\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6tesinde, saatlerle m\u00fccadele ederek ula\u015f\u0131labilen, en fazla 40-50 ki\u015finin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131, dev kiliseleri veya manast\u0131rlar\u0131 olan, muhte\u015fem bir do\u011fayla \u00e7evrelenmi\u015f \u00f6zel yerler. Ne \u015fansl\u0131y\u0131m. Ne mutluyum.<\/p>\n<p>Bu Camino\u2019da kimseye g\u0131c\u0131k olmad\u0131m! G\u0131c\u0131k olmak neydi hat\u0131rlamad\u0131m&#8230; Yar\u0131\u015fmad\u0131m, yar\u0131\u015fmay\u0131 bilin\u00e7li olarak kenara b\u0131rakt\u0131m. Her \u015feyi planlay\u0131p hesaplamad\u0131m: Dur bakal\u0131m \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00e7\u0131kar bir \u015fey dedim, \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcld\u00fc&#8230; Otelim istasyonun yan\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, kafenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde otob\u00fcs dura\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, pansiyonun yeme\u011fi g\u00fczel \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m yol turlamas\u0131 de\u011fer \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Misal bu sabah: Bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck yolu atlamak istiyordum, aman nas\u0131l gidece\u011fim o ara yolu, otob\u00fcs m\u00fc baksam, hadi taksiye mi k\u0131ysam, neyse dur bakal\u0131m hele demi\u015fken, aaa o da ne! Kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m kasaba ana yol \u00fcst\u00fcndeymi\u015f ve buradan otob\u00fcsler her istedi\u011fim yere gidiyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>Hadi sabah\u0131n makul 8.25 saatinde bindim otob\u00fcse, tereya\u011f\u0131ndan k\u0131l \u00e7eker gibi gittim sevgili Villafranca Montes de Oca\u2019ya. Ordaki yol turlamas\u0131 hakk\u0131nda kimse bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylememi\u015fti, olumlu veya olumsuz, ama zaten g\u00fcnl\u00fck yolu k\u0131saltt\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in hadi gidip bakay\u0131m bari dedim, en k\u00f6t\u00fc ihtimal 1 saat fazladan y\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f olurum&#8230; \u00d6yle g\u00fczel bir yolda, \u00f6yle g\u00fczel bir havada y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm, sisler aras\u0131nda, sonbahar renklerinin ya\u011fmurunda, yaprak d\u00f6ken a\u011fa\u00e7lar e\u015fli\u011finde gittim ki Ermita de Alba\u2019ya, ordan Pozo de San Ignacio\u2019ya! \u0130nan\u0131lmaz eski bir k\u00f6pr\u00fc, do\u011fayla b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015fmi\u015f, tarihin derinliklerinde bir kuyu, manast\u0131r\u0131n ta\u015f duvarlar\u0131, \u0131p\u0131ss\u0131z, sepsessiz&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Nas\u0131l m\u00fcthi\u015f bir enerji ald\u0131msa burdan, normal yola d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde hemen hepsi benden \u00f6nce yola koyulmu\u015f olan peregrino arkada\u015flar\u0131 birer birer ge\u00e7tim, zerre kadar yorulmadan tepeler \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m indim. Saatler s\u00fcren ormanl\u0131k yolda kar\u015f\u0131ma, yepyeni bir vaha \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131: Bir k\u0131z orman\u0131n tam buras\u0131na bizler i\u00e7in mobil bir kafe yapmaya karar vermi\u015f, arabay\u0131 kenara \u00e7ekmi\u015f, m\u00fczi\u011fini \u00e7al\u0131yor, a\u011fa\u00e7 k\u00fct\u00fcklerinden taburelerle masalar\u0131 serpi\u015ftiriyor, portakal sular\u0131, meyveler, kahveler ikram ediyor ba\u011f\u0131\u015f kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda&#8230; Ne g\u00fczel bir i\u015f. Sonunda San Juan\u2019da g\u00fcn, \u201cYorulmad\u0131m tabii, sadece 18 kilometre y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm bug\u00fcn,\u201d diye bitti!<\/p>\n<p>\u015eunu unutmamak gerek: Her Camino kendi ba\u015f\u0131na bir macera. Ayn\u0131 olmas\u0131, s\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 olmas\u0131, g\u0131na gelmesi m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil. O kadar \u00e7ok \u015fey yapt\u0131m ki bu sefer, daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m. Santo Domingo\u2019da iki tane Parador gezdim mesela. O kadar g\u00fczeller ki, ilk 20 ya\u015f\u0131mdayken beni m\u00fcthi\u015f etkileyen Santiago paradorunun minyat\u00fcr\u00fc gibi, kemerli ta\u015f binalar, oymalar kakmalar ve ah\u015fap klasik mobilyalarla. Eski peregrino hastaneleri. Kapadokya\u2019dakiler gibi gezi balonlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm havada. M\u00fcthi\u015f sonbahar manzaralar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm zaten, o ba\u015fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na bir vaka&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>3 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131yla bisikletle Camino yapan bir aile g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, minik \u00e7ocuklar, \u00e7ocuk r\u00f6morklar\u0131 falan, \u015fu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m dakikalarda 100 metre \u00f6tedeki \u00e7ad\u0131rlar\u0131ndalar. Amsterdam\u2019dan bisikletle gelmi\u015f 60\u2019lar\u0131nda bir kad\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, 4 haftad\u0131r yoldaym\u0131\u015f. Kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 iki ay evvel kaybetmi\u015f, 42 ya\u015f\u0131nda, 5 \u00e7ocuk babas\u0131 bir peregrino g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Bel\u00e7ika\u2019dan bu yana y\u00fcr\u00fcyen bir adam g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ayaklar\u0131n\u0131n her yeri bantl\u0131 ve bandajl\u0131 bir k\u0131z g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, hat\u0131r soran herkese her \u015fey yolunda diyordu. Dik a\u00e7\u0131da duramayan ama yar\u0131n yine 20 kilometre y\u00fcr\u00fcyecek bir adam g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cPeregrino, quien te llama?***\u201d \u015fiirini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm yolda bir duvarda. Daha \u00f6nce \u201cMas amor, por favor!****\u201d yazan yeri tan\u0131d\u0131m, ba\u015fka bir \u015fey yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u0130lk kez bir \u0130spanyol zeytinci tan\u0131d\u0131m ve zeytin muhabbetlerini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. M\u00fcthi\u015f g\u00fczellikte zeytin a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm; m\u00fcthi\u015f g\u00fczellikte g\u00fcn do\u011fu\u015flar\u0131 -ki benim i\u00e7in nadirdir- ve m\u00fcthi\u015f tatl\u0131 k\u00f6y k\u00f6pekleri -do\u011fru, bu pek nadir de\u011fildir- g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Navarrete\u2019yi daha \u00f6nce yeterince g\u00f6rmedi\u011fimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, hayat\u0131m\u0131n en tatl\u0131 \u015fekerlemesini yapt\u0131m Casa Peregrinando\u2019da.<\/p>\n<p>Daha \u00f6nce girmedi\u011fim katedrallere girdim, daha \u00f6nce uyumad\u0131\u011f\u0131m odalarda uyudum, daha \u00f6nce konu\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlarla konu\u015ftum. Bir Benedikten manast\u0131r\u0131nda kald\u0131m bir gece, ortalama 87 ya\u015f\u0131ndaki rahibelerle (ve tahtakurular\u0131yla!). Pamplona\u2019da sevdi\u011fim otelde kald\u0131m, Pamplona sokaklar\u0131n\u0131, Bodega Sarria\u2019y\u0131 sevdim bir daha. Bir kilisede ta\u015f basamaklarla kuleye t\u0131rman\u0131p \u00e7an \u00e7ald\u0131m, dileklerimi vadiye yaymak i\u00e7in. Tekrar Ibanyeta kilisesini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, biraz daha hayran oldum. Tekrar Bask evlerini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, biraz daha hayran oldum.<\/p>\n<p>Az evvel yan\u0131mdaki masada oturan bir kad\u0131n yan\u0131ndakilere dedi, \u201cSt Jean\u2019dan Roncesvalles\u2019e ya\u011fmurda siste y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fck, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey g\u00f6remedik,\u201d diye&#8230; A\u011fz\u0131m a\u00e7\u0131k kald\u0131. Ben de aynen \u00f6yle y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm, oysa ben neler g\u00f6rd\u00fcm: Kal\u0131n bacakl\u0131 \u0130spanyol atlar\u0131n\u0131, yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n siste rengarenk manzaras\u0131n\u0131, bo\u015flu\u011fun, yoklu\u011fun i\u00e7inde y\u00fcr\u00fcmenin keyfini, ya\u011fmurla parlayan \u00f6r\u00fcmcek a\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 ve benekli kocaman domuzlar\u0131, bulutlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda kalan ye\u015fil tepeleri, Pirenelerin zirvesinde d\u00f6rt duvardan ibaret s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131n ne i\u015fe yarad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131!<\/p>\n<p>\u0130lk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde kendi kendime dalga ge\u00e7mi\u015ftim, s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak dedikleri bu mu, kim bunun neresine, neden s\u0131\u011f\u0131ns\u0131n diye&#8230; Bu kez, pudrams\u0131 ya\u011fmurda yol boyunca \u015f\u00f6yle bir ayakta durabilecek tek bir nokta bile yokken, tek se\u00e7ene\u011fimiz 27 kilometreyi durmadan tamamlay\u0131p Roncesvalles\u2019e varmakken, ya\u011fmur \u00e7akt\u0131rmadan ufak ufak cep i\u00e7lerine kadar n\u00fcfuz ederken \u00f6yle bir sevindim ki bu s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak kar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda! \u0130\u015fte dedim, i\u015fte paradigma de\u011fi\u015ftirmek buna denir.<\/p>\n<p>B\u00f6\u011f\u00fcrtlenler, \u00fcz\u00fcmler yedim dallar\u0131ndan, kuruyan incirlere, kararan zeytinlere bakt\u0131m. Israrla Katolik misin, de\u011fil misin diye soran din insanlar\u0131n\u0131n kapal\u0131 kafalar\u0131na \u015fa\u015ft\u0131m. Biraz daha -peregrinal\u0131kla, T\u00fcrkl\u00fckle, inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m dinlerle ve konu\u015ftu\u011fum dillerle- insanlar\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131m. Tarihin bu kadar \u00f6zenle, sevgiyle korunmas\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131skand\u0131m. Baz\u0131 sabahlara erken ba\u015flad\u0131m, karanl\u0131ktan, tek ba\u015f\u0131nal\u0131ktan korkmadan. Ta\u015f y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan klasik Camino i\u015faretlerine farkl\u0131 yakla\u015ft\u0131m: \u00d6nceki seferlerdeki gibi dikkatle en tepeye dizece\u011fim yerde, kendi yerini bulur diye uzaktan att\u0131m ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Brierley rehberine, fikir ve \u00f6nerilerine kat\u0131lmama hakk\u0131n\u0131 da art\u0131k kendime tan\u0131d\u0131m: O me\u015fhur rehber yazar\u0131 olabilir ama ben de \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc kez bu yollara d\u00fc\u015fen, fikri h\u00fcr vicdan\u0131 h\u00fcr bir vatanda\u015f\u0131m! Tarihi olanlar d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda her yap\u0131 burun k\u0131vr\u0131lacak a\u015fa\u011f\u0131l\u0131k bir yap\u0131 de\u011fil bence; daha \u00e7ok modern mimarinin fonksiyonel ve zarif \u00f6rnekleri; ve do\u011fan\u0131n ayak bas\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f ba\u011fr\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda t\u00fcm y\u00fcr\u00fcnen yollar g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcl\u00fc birer \u0131st\u0131rap de\u011fil, \u0130spanyol sosyal ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 deneyimledi\u011fimiz de\u011ferli ve \u00e7o\u011funlukla e\u011flenceli alanlar. Neticede Camino her ne sebeple y\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrse y\u00fcr\u00fcns\u00fcn i\u015fin i\u00e7inde bir par\u00e7a da bu \u00fclkeyi tan\u0131mak, yolunu, lokantas\u0131n\u0131, aile e\u011flencesini, bisiklet\u00e7ilerini, \u00e7iftliklerini, festivallerini g\u00f6rmek, kahvesini, \u015farab\u0131n\u0131 koklamak iste\u011fi yok mu?<\/p>\n<p><i>Sen \u00f6nce tan\u0131, bil kendini<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Sar\u0131l da kalbine<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Sonra beni sev dedi<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Hepimiz yaln\u0131z\u0131z bu yolda<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Hayat denilen oyunda<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00d6nce seni sonra beni bul dedi\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>K\u0131r\u0131lma, yapma kalbim dar\u0131lma<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Nedeni var her \u015feyin, su\u00e7lu sorumlu arama\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n<p>&#8230;dedi bir ara Tarkan kula\u011f\u0131mda. Sonra Freddie, hi\u00e7 bitmeyen enerjisi, hi\u00e7 eskimeyen co\u015fkusuyla, The show must go on, dedi:<\/p>\n<p><i>The show must go on<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>I&#8217;ll face it with a grin<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>I&#8217;m never giving in<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>On with the show\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>I&#8217;ll top the bill, I&#8217;ll overkill<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>I have to find the will to carry on<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>On with the show\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Devam edecek iradeyi bulmak! \u0130\u015fte burada d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmleniyor konu. Her g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011fleden sonra saat 2, 3 veya 4 sular\u0131nda, yorgun, a\u00e7, kirli, s\u00fcr\u00fcnerek ula\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her var\u0131\u015f noktas\u0131nda, \u015fu \u0130spanyol reklam yaz\u0131s\u0131 pek yerli yerinde akl\u0131ma gelip cuk oturdu: <i>\u201cEstoy un poco en la mierda, pero estoy bien!*****\u201d<\/i> Tam Camino yan\u0131t\u0131 bu, que tal sorusuna: Evet bka batm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, evet peri\u015fan bir halde olabilirim, ama ba\u015fard\u0131m. \u00d6nemli olan bu: Kendime bir hedef koydum, ve -hedefime ula\u015fmasam bile, her halukarda, o hedefi koymakla ve o hedef i\u00e7in yola koyulmakla- ba\u015fard\u0131m. \u015eimdi yaralar\u0131m\u0131 yalayaca\u011f\u0131m, ve bug\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015farman\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fcyle yar\u0131n tekrar ayn\u0131 \u015feylerle m\u00fccadele edece\u011fim. Yar\u0131n, devam edece\u011fim!<\/p>\n<p>Sevgili Viyana\u2019dan sevgili Hundertwasser Haus hat\u0131ralar\u0131mdan birinde sanat\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n bay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u00f6z\u00fc yaz\u0131yordu, \u201cM\u00fczeye girmek i\u00e7in ayaklar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7izdi\u011fi \u00e7izgiler, m\u00fczenin duvarlar\u0131nda sergilenenlerden daha de\u011ferlidir,\u201d diye. Evet. \u015eu anda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m zormu\u015f, g\u00fczelmi\u015f, ba\u015far\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, bunlar\u0131n hepsini -laf aram\u0131zda- kulak arkas\u0131 ediyorum ben. \u015eu anda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131ma gelene kadar ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7izdi\u011fi \u00e7izgiler, geride kalan okullar evler \u015fehirler ya\u015famlar insanlar i\u015fler hayaller eserler\u2026 \u015eu anda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131mla bu nedenle iftihar ediyorum.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7ok seneler evvet Keith Jarret bir alb\u00fcm yaz\u0131s\u0131nda dikkatimi \u00e7ekmi\u015fti, ya\u015famlar\u0131m\u0131z art\u0131k eskilerinki gibi birbirini takip eden \u015feylerden olu\u015fmuyor, birbirinden kopuk par\u00e7alar var her an\u0131m\u0131zda, mealinde bir konuya. San Juan\u2019da da papaz vurgulad\u0131 bu tuhaf durumumuzu: s\u00fcreklilik, aidiyet, iz, takip, b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fck. Hayat\u0131m\u0131zda eksik olan \u015fey, modern hayatlar\u0131m\u0131zda. Ben niye y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum senelerdir? \u00d6ncelerle sonralar birbirlerine dokunsunlar diye. Benler ve di\u011ferleri -los demas- yerlilerle yabanc\u0131lar inananlarla \u00e7atlaklar do\u011fayla metropol ve di\u011fer her \u015fey, kafamda, i\u00e7imde, muhayyilemde olan her \u015feyler birbirlerine de\u011fsinler, birbirlerini takip etsinler ve birbirlerini b\u00fct\u00fcnlesinler diye.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle yani.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><i>* Bar\u0131\u015f, ama \u00fclkeler, uluslar aras\u0131nda de\u011fil, her birimizin i\u00e7inde bar\u0131\u015f \/ huzur olmas\u0131n\u0131 istiyorum.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>** \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc i\u00e7imde bar\u0131\u015f \/ huzur var, her yerimde bar\u0131\u015f \/ huzur var.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>*** Peregrino, kim \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor seni?..<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>**** Daha fazla sevgi l\u00fctfen!<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>***** Birazc\u0131k bktan bir durumday\u0131m ama iyiyim.<\/i><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>(Ekim 2017)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>San Juan de Ortega: \u201cBa\u011f\u0131rtlak ku\u015funun azizi Yahya\u201d&#8230; Bir zamanlar n\u00fcfusu 1 olan bu k\u00f6yde \u015fimdi, m\u00fcjdeler olsun, 20 ki\u015fi ya\u015f\u0131yor! Kilisenin b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ise ak\u0131llara&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/2017\/10\/24\/bagirtlak-kusunun-bagrindan\/\">Devam\u0131 i\u00e7in&#8230;<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Ba\u011f\u0131rtlak ku\u015funun ba\u011fr\u0131ndan&#8230;<\/span><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[8],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/491"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=491"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/491\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":492,"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/491\/revisions\/492"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=491"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=491"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.candanturhan.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=491"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}