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Bu s\u0131ralarki ruh halime o kadar uydu ki bu \u015fark\u0131 ad\u0131…<\/p>\n
For now I am winter: Ege yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bir ara, yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok anlaml\u0131, \u00e7ok yere dokunan capslerin birinde, her mevsim tomurcuklanmak \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7mak \u0131\u015f\u0131klar sa\u00e7mak falan zorunda de\u011filiz diye… Ben de bu s\u0131ralar ya katil olaca\u011f\u0131m, ya k\u0131\u015f. Se\u00e7enekler k\u0131s\u0131tl\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n G\u00f6nl\u00fcmde neler neler var, orada tomurcuk eksik de\u011fil, \u0131\u015f\u0131klar, a\u015fklar dolu g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn derinlerinde: Altay var heeerrr \u015feyden \u00f6nce. Altaylarda olma hayali var, Altayca konu\u015fmak, Altay havas\u0131 solumak, derelerde yu\u011fmak ve ata binmek ve Altay topra\u011f\u0131yla halvet olmak. Y\u00fczlerce kitap okumak var sonra, tar\u0131mdan T\u00fcrk k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcne, arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n romanlar\u0131ndan kendi kitaplar\u0131ma okumak, okumak. Topra\u011fa dal\u0131p onunla b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015fmek var \u00fcst\u00fcne, tohumlar\u0131 t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmle \u0131slatmak, topraklar\u0131 g\u00fcbreleri ellerimle birle\u015ftirip ayaklar\u0131mla ezmek var. Yazmak, yazmak, yazmak var sonra. Motoruma atlay\u0131p \u201cyiiikkka\u201d diye kartal \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 atarak u\u00e7up gitmek, can\u0131m\u0131n istedi\u011fi yerde \u00e7ad\u0131r at\u0131p ufak tefek m\u00fccadelemi vererek do\u011fan\u0131n koynuna girmek var. Daha neler neler var.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ama g\u00f6nl\u00fcme s\u0131ra gelmeden, yap\u0131lacaklar listem var. Aranacaklar, \u00f6denecekler, bekleyenler ve anla\u015f\u0131lacaklar var. Bitecekler, kapat\u0131l\u0131p kenara konacaklar var. Var o\u011flu var.<\/p>\n O halde ne yap\u0131yoruz? Sadece bize g\u00fc\u00e7 verecek, \u0131\u015f\u0131k verecek \u015feyleri dinliyor, g\u00f6r\u00fcyor, al\u0131yoruz…<\/p>\n Biliyoruz ki, sonunda her \u015fey iyi olacak. \u0130yi de\u011filse ise, hen\u00fcz sonu gelmemi\u015f olacak.<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Bu muamma yutacak bizi. Kim ki yorulmadan uza\u011fa, daha uza\u011fa ko\u015fmaya g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fcd\u00fcr ancak onu kurtarabiliriz. (Lela Tataraidze)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n \u0130\u00e7imde bir k\u0131\u015f var… (Tony Curtis)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n The war you can’t win is the only one worth fighting.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n E\u011fer gidece\u011fin yolu se\u00e7men gerekirse en zorunu se\u00e7. (Himalaya filmi)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Kendini, sana sadece sevgi ve \u00f6zen g\u00f6sterecek odalara ve durumlara sokacak kadar sev. Kendini, sana herhangi bir \u015fekilde zarar veren odalardan \u00e7\u0131kacak kadar sev. Kendini, sana zarar veren insanlardan s\u00f6zleri ve davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7in hesap soracak kadar sev. Kendini isteklerini, ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ve arzular\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7a ifade edecek kadar sev. Kendini do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yleyecek kadar sev. Kendini g\u00fcvende tutacak kadar sev. Kendini, art\u0131k yetti\u011finde, yetti art\u0131k diyecek kadar sev.<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Iss\u0131z tepelerde g\u00fcne\u015fe bak\u0131p saati tahmin etsem;<\/p>\n hi\u00e7 haberim olmasa per\u015fembeden, pazartesiden. (Turgut Uyar)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Ya\u011fmur ya\u011far akasyalar \u0131slan\u0131r<\/p>\n Bulutlar u\u00e7u\u015fur geceleyin<\/p>\n Ben ya\u011fmura deli buluta deli<\/p>\n Bir b\u00fcy\u00fck oyun ya\u015famak dedi\u011fin<\/p>\n Beni ya sevmeli ya \u00f6ld\u00fcrmeli. (G\u00fclten Ak\u0131n)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Zaman\u0131 tanr\u0131 ya\u015far. \u0130nsano\u011flu hep \u00f6lmek i\u00e7in t\u00fcremi\u015f. (Orhun Yaz\u0131tlar\u0131)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Y\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcne\u015fe d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczde g\u00f6lge kalm\u0131yor. (Mercan Dede)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n D\u00fcnya her g\u00fcn, her g\u00fcn, her g\u00fcn g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011farken deri de\u011fi\u015ftiriyor, yepyeni ter\u00fctaze oluyor. \u0130nsan, her insan, e\u011fer insansa, her g\u00fcn, her g\u00fcn, her g\u00fcn tanyerleri \u0131\u015f\u0131rken yeniden do\u011fuyor. (Ya\u015far Kemal, \u0130nce Memed)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n (Kural 4) Bitmi\u015f olan bir \u015fey bitmi\u015ftir. Bu kadar basittir. Hayat\u0131m\u0131zda bir \u015fey sona ererse, bu bizim geli\u015fimimize hizmet eder. Bu y\u00fczden serbest b\u0131rakmak, gitmesine izin vermek ve elde etmi\u015f oldu\u011fun bu tecr\u00fcbeyle ileri do\u011fru bakmak daha iyidir…<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n \u015eiirler yazd\u0131m kitaplar okudum<\/p>\n elime bir bardak ald\u0131m, onu yeniden oydum<\/p>\n derinlerde kald\u0131m b\u00f6yle bir zaman<\/p>\n kim bulmu\u015f ki kendini, kim ne anlam\u0131\u015f sanki mutluluktan (Edip Cansever)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Invictus<\/p>\n Out of the night that covers me,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Black as the pit from pole to pole,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n I thank whatever gods may be\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n For my unconquerable soul.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n In the fell clutch of circumstance\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n I have not winced nor cried aloud.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Under the bludgeonings of chance\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n My head is bloody, but unbowed.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Beyond this place of wrath and tears\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Looms but the Horror of the shade,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n And yet the menace of the years\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Finds and shall find me unafraid.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n It matters not how strait the gate,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n How charged with punishments the scroll,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n I am the master of my fate,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n I am the captain of my soul.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n (Sir William Ernest Henley)<\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n Denge<\/p>\n Sizin al\u0131n\u0131z al inand\u0131m\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Sizin morunuz mor inand\u0131m\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Tanr\u0131n\u0131z b\u00fcy\u00fck amenna\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u015eiiriniz adamak\u0131ll\u0131 \u015fiir\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Duman\u0131 da caba\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n B\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fa\u00e7larla uyu\u015fmu\u015fum\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Kalabal\u0131k ha olmu\u015f ha olmam\u0131\u015f\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Sokaklarda yitirmi\u015f cebimde bulmu\u015fum\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ama sokaklar \u015f\u00f6yleymi\u015f\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n A\u011fa\u00e7lar b\u00f6yleymi\u015f\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ama sizin ad\u0131n\u0131z ne\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Benim dengemi bozmay\u0131n\u0131z<\/p>\n A\u015fk\u0131m da de\u011fi\u015febilir ger\u00e7eklerim de\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n P\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l dalgal\u0131 bir denize kar\u015f\u0131\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Yangelmi\u015fim diz boyu sulara\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Hepinize iyi niyetle g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Hi\u00e7birinizle d\u00f6\u011f\u00fc\u015femem\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Benim bir gizli bildi\u011fim var\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Sizin al\u0131n\u0131z al inand\u0131m\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Morunuz mor inand\u0131m\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ben tam kendime g\u00f6re\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ben tam d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6re\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Ama sizin ad\u0131n\u0131z ne\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Benim dengemi bozmay\u0131n\u0131z<\/p>\n (Turgut Uyar)<\/p>\n (Ekim 2018)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bu s\u0131ralarki ruh halime o kadar uydu ki bu \u015fark\u0131 ad\u0131… For now I am winter: Ege yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bir ara, yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok anlaml\u0131, \u00e7ok yere…<\/p>\n